Because of you...now i'm who i'm

reflections as of 2012

2012-01-04T01:01:00.004+08:00

Life had been pretty rough for me for the past few years.
It was like a roller coaster ride.
Boring to thrilling to NOTHING.

Very soon I will be turning 23.
Time really fly.
It really scares me.
Every time my parents remind of my own age,
I start to ponder over my achievements in life.

What have I been doing for the past few years of my life?
Indeed, I have wasted 2 years of my youth.
A choice I made, wasted my youth away.

Initially was to graduate from LASALLE.
Get a job as a designer.
Earn my school fees.
Hop back to school again for further studies.

NOW?
Geez, I am just like a good-for-nothing.
Basically, wasting my time and youth to all useless stuffs.
I hold a part-time job now, but so what?
I cannot even fair well for my exams!

Life sucks right?
Well, to make matter worst...
Petty cash from my desk suddenly vanished into thin air.
Simply, WOW right?
Yeah, tell me about it...

Thank god I have a good boss.
At least I know that I will be learning & repenting.

My folks are kinda eager to make my brother and I to be quickly settled down with our halves.
IN THE FIRST PLACE, I DO NOT EVEN OWN A HALF.

I used to own a half, but I gave him up for someone 'better'
The fact is: the someone 'better' is known for 'better off dead'.

It is hard to put all past behind.
As I learn from my past, sometimes we humans take things too seriously.
At times, we should really just 'let-it-go.'

For the man who I really treasured & appreciated:
God bless you~
She is indeed much better than me.
Wish you 2 happy & loving.

For the man who was supposed to be a 'better' man:
God bless you as well~
The more you screw women's lives up, the more screwed up you get.
Get a life~!
Trust me, I will get there to prove you wrong.

For my folks:
Please be patience~
I am really not keen in relationships right now.
Career is what I need.
Man is just a want.

For my boss, KK:
KUDOs to you!
I have grown more than I have expected.
(ok, skipping the growing of sideways.)
You have nurtured me into a better woman.

To all my pals:
Love you guys lots!
Thanks for being there for me!

Ian's Big Day

2011-12-21T13:02:00.000+08:00

Dinner

2011-12-15T15:10:00.002+08:00

Dinner

2011-12-15T15:10:00.001+08:00

To my P6 kids

2011-12-03T10:01:00.000+08:00

SALE SALE SALE

2011-12-03T09:52:00.000+08:00

Havaianas SALE on SINGSALE!

Link: SINGSALE

28 Nov

2011-11-28T00:30:00.003+08:00

It is half past midnight in Singapore.

It is 28 November 2011.

A new born is born every minute.

& I happen to know one who is born on this particular day.

He was the one who I shared all my happiness & sorrows with.

He was supposed to be my f-u-t-u-r-e.

I guess I will have to numb myself for the whole of today.

Life was tough without him.

Very tough indeed.

Everything felt as though it was surreal...

Till reality sinks in.

Walking away with countless of wounds & penniless.

Lost in this reality.

It just felt as if one tight slap across my cheek.

That burns,

it hurts...

It still does...

Guessing that you might be leading a meaningful life now.

While you have taught me well.

I have turned into a monster.

A monster who I don't even recognize myself.

Staring blankly into the mirror.

Wondering who is that woman staring back.

Took me awhile to realize that I was no longer a little girl.

Turned into an ambitious greedy monster.

REALITY IS UGLY.

Indeed, it is... ...

那些年

2011-11-15T23:16:00.001+08:00

那些年，我们一起追的女孩 - 那些年(胡夏)

那些年，我们一起追的女孩电影主题曲

作曲：木村充利

填词：九把刀

又回到最初的起点

记忆中你青涩的脸

我们终于来到了这一天

桌垫下的老照片

无数回忆连结

今天男孩要赴女孩最后的约

又回到最初的起点

呆呆地站在镜子前

笨拙系上红色领带的结

将头发梳成大人模样

穿上一身帅气西装

等会儿见你一定比想像美

好想再回到那些年的时光

回到教室座位前后　故意讨你温柔的骂

黑板上排列组合　你舍得解开吗

谁与谁坐他又爱着她

那些年错过的大雨

那些年错过的爱情

好想拥抱你　拥抱错过的勇气

曾经想征服全世界

到最后回首才发现

这世界滴滴点点全部都是你

那些年错过的大雨

那些年错过的爱情

好想告诉你　告诉你我没有忘记

那天晚上满天星星

平行时空下的约定

再一次相遇我会紧紧抱着你

紧紧抱着你

Grey Zone

2011-10-19T01:45:00.003+08:00

Dear Mummy,

Can you please have trust & faith in me?

Whenever I am on conversations with guys, you just kept on emphasizing that I am back to square one.

I AM NOT HUNTING FOR A BOYFRIEND!

Showing care & concern doesn't imply that I am interested in that party.

Why weren't you worried over the fact that I might turn back into a lesbian again?

I know what I been through and I have learnt my lesson.

Widening my social circle is a wrong move?

Social networking is wrong too?

Then what is right?

I have learnt that there is no right or wrong in this world.

It is only up to our moral values & consciences.

In other words, my conscience have died.

I am purely a living zombie.

Aww...

2011-10-18T02:01:00.002+08:00

Regretting every single shit I have done to destroy my life.

I AM SIMPLY AWESOME TO DESTROY MY OWN LIFE.

*eyes roll*

Life still goes on...

New-found Darling

2011-09-28T20:35:00.000+08:00

Sorry

2011-09-28T20:02:00.004+08:00

An apology for you

Only after all that had happened on me...
I have realized that I made a wrong decision in the past.

I am sorry.

Marcus's scoldings woke me up from my dream:

There was a boy who is madly in love with me,
And there is me who is madly in love with that boy still...
But, that boy is happy with another girl.
That girl who I believe that she would not hurt him like I did.

(Dear girl, please take good care of this boy and love him like there's no tomorrow. Thank you.)

^our last photo taken on 4 Jan 2011^

^It's hard to let go, but I have to...^

^Miss that scent, miss that hug & miss that L-O-V-E^

_Tina signing off_

time to let things go...

2011-08-01T23:36:00.002+08:00

Mum went to the temple today.

She is hoping that God will bless me in my studies.

In the end, she got a word of advice from the fortune teller.

In order for me to excel in my studies,

I must learn to let things go & forgive what had happened in the past.

The piece of advice stated that I have hatred & grudges towards my past.

Thus this is the only thing that is hindering me from excelling.

I was thinking about this matter too when I had to drop by to Bras Besah to purchase textbooks.

My fears of running into him.

My fears to the place.

My fears in facing my past.

I just hope that someone can make me be brave once again.

I thought I found that someone a year ago...

I guess I was wrong...

It is ok, it is an experience.

Sidetrack:

Time spent together with darling is reassuring & comforting.

It had been quite some time ever since someone this close gives me a sense of security.

I don't have to be afraid whenever I am with him.

As I know that he is there for me.

(but some stuffs better be sealed then exposed.)

you

2011-07-25T23:40:00.002+08:00

I know that you hate me for getting drunk.

You even forbid me to drink.

Where are you now?

I really miss you.

I told Michelle Dear about all my feelings.

She said that I can either hold on to my feelings or just move on.

I don't wanna move on as I still have feelings for you.

I am not eyeing for your money.

Neither am I eyeing for the inheritance.

I just wanna fight & stand line in line with you in your business.

I really want to expand your business with you.

I don't dream about being a tai tai.

I don't mind life being tough with you.

I just wanna share everything with you.

what can i do?

2011-07-16T00:55:00.002+08:00

Everyday I thought about you.

I even dreamt about you almost every night.

You're like a drug.

I cannot seem to get rid of you.

Darling

2011-07-12T23:16:00.002+08:00

My heart has frozen in time.

I got no idea on how to defrost it.

You just told me that you only treat me like a friend.

I bet that you don't know how many wounds you had inflicted on me.

I am badly wounded by you.

School has commenced.

Alot of bachelors around me, but why am I still clinging onto you?

Why can't I just forget you & move on?

I have the courage to break up with that loser

But you didn't have the motivation to hold onto me.

WHY?!

Done everything for you.

& I am still proud of it.

Be proud of me as I am no longer that weak useless Darling who you used to know.

TIME TO READ THROUGH MY NOTES.

Everyday I still have the thought of you sending a flower a day till the day I graduate.

Your words have done great impacts in my life.

Where's my 999 stalks of flower?

disappointed

2011-07-03T23:08:00.002+08:00

Does she even know that the Ninja bear was actually from me?

Does she really DON'T MIND HUGGING IT EVERY NIGHT?!

Seriously, if that would have happened to me.

I would rather die.

Never to accept your boyfriend's gifts when they are given by his EXs.

Woman, why are you so gullible?

He just gave you a gift that was from me!

You're plain stupid.

Much worse than me.

No wonder you're with him now.

Yes, I am mad right now.

At both of you.

Guy is stupid enough to pass a past Valentine's Day gift to his current girlfriend now.

To a girl who calls her boyfriend 'husband', you're stupid enough not to find out about the past of that toy.

Woman, that guy isn't worth it.

And you're happily hugging it.

Hope you will wake up from your dream soon.

I miss you more than anything

2011-06-27T21:57:00.000+08:00

Pain?

2011-06-24T10:03:00.003+08:00

Broke my toe nail last night, which bled alot.

But I wasn't actually experiencing pain...

Perhaps my nerve for transmitting pain had snapped.

Snapped from a broken heart.

Moving on isn't easy, as there are some circumstances to it.

Seeing other people being happy, I am glad for them too.

Knowing that my life isn't perfect,

nevertheless trying my best to make it perfect every single day.

Reading up books on languages does not mean that he will be back for you.

Pinning too high hopes on him makes me fall down to disappointment even more.

I have tried my best to make myself a better person, it seems like you're the one who isn't appreciating.

I would love to hate you.

On the other hand, hating you requires more of my emotions.

I would not want my emotions to wreak my motivations.

In the end, I just found out that you're only a plain disappointment.

FUCK IT!

2011-06-20T10:14:00.001+08:00

NO POINT IN HOLDING ON TO THIS RELATIONSHIP

WHEN YOU DON'T EVEN

GIVE A FUCK ABOUT IT!

our process

2011-06-19T22:07:00.003+08:00

i really hope that i can make this photo my facebook profile picture

this is the man who engraved his words & actions on my heart

our first photo together

sigh

2011-06-15T00:41:00.002+08:00

After this song, I hate to say this

But...

I miss you.

I know you're one anal bastard that changed my life upside down, inside out.

I know that you ain't any good guy.

I know that you're a BIG FAT LIAR.

I know everything about you.

BUT

I just hate to come to know that I miss this anal bastard.

the story of us

2011-06-15T00:00:00.003+08:00

Taylor Swift - The story of us

I used to think one day we'd tell the story of us
How we met and the sparks flew instantly
People would say, "they're the lucky ones"
I used to know my place was a spot next to you
Now I'm searching the room for an empty seat
'Cause lately I don't even know what page you're on
Oh, a simple complication
Miscommunications lead to fall out
So many things that I wish you knew
So many walls up I can't break through

Now I'm standing alone
In a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you
Like it's killing me?
I don't know what to say
Since a twist of fate
When it all broke down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now
Next chapter

How'd we end up this way?
See me nervously pulling at my clothes
And trying to look busy
And you're doing your best to avoid me
I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us
How I was losing my mind when I saw you here
But you held your pride like you should have held me
Oh, we're scared to see the ending
Why are we pretending this is nothing?
I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how
I've never heard silence quite this loud

Now I'm standing alone
In a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you
Like it's killing me?
I don't know what to say
Since a twist of fate
When it all broke down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now

This is looking like a contest
Of who can act like they care less
But I liked it better when you were on my side
The battle's in your hands now
But I would lay my armor down
If you'd say you'd rather love than fight
So many things that you wish I knew
But the story of us might be ending soon

Now I'm standing alone
In a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you
Like it's killing me?
I don't know what to say
Since a twist of fate
When it all broke down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now, now, now
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you
Like it's killing me?
I don't know what to say
Since a twist of fate
'cause we're going down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now

excited

2011-06-04T01:40:00.000+08:00

I will be outta town in 8hours time!!!

Cannot wait!!!

lilo's bday

2011-05-09T10:27:00.001+08:00

LILO's TURNING 3!

IN LESS THAN 24HRS!

please

2011-05-05T12:45:00.002+08:00

PLEASE, I BEG YOU...

JUST LET ME GO...

Just stop stalking me...

Just stop calling & smsing me...

Just be happy with your girl...

I am just only your past.

So please don't haunt me anymore.

i need to concentrate!

2011-05-04T23:33:00.003+08:00

My mind is no longer healthy right now as...

Even though my work load is piling up, I still cannot get rid of you from my head.

It is all about YOU!

Can I just have my life back?!

PLEASE?!

Please stop haunting me!

You're enjoying your life, so let me have that privilege too!

You would not want your girl to be upset over this issue.

This 'our thing' has became the past...

It is now you & her and ME, MYSELF & I.

After talking to Mark, I think I will be getting myself another job.

To numb myself, to forget, to occupy my time...

TO WHATEVER! I DON'T CARE!

I JUST WANT YOU OUT OF MY MIND!!!

the best

2011-04-22T21:46:00.000+08:00

I HATE TO BE STRANGERS AGAIN!!!

car ride

2011-03-31T04:57:00.002+08:00

Ben drove AUDI TT to drop by ZOUK just now!

& I managed to get to sit in there to get a feel of what is like to be in SPORTS CAR.

When he drove past ZOUK, all the attention was on me!

I had never felt so good!

Those envious eyestares~~

I love Ben~~!!!

TINA TAN WAS IN A TT~!!!

While clubbing with kor & Clarence, I was hit on by the cashier.

I STILL HAVE MARKET VALUE, OK?!

I love kor & Clarence to bits!

I am a very happy woman after all.

Boy came to pick me up as he needs a camera from me.

Thus, I get a free ride home.

He is way too over protective over himself.

We just cannot get any closer anymore. . .

a new chapter in life

2011-03-29T22:19:00.003+08:00

After crying for few nights in a row, I do feel much better.

Maybe crying is a form of venting out all your frustrations.

Feeling so lost, so uncomfortable, so lonely...

The only thing that accompanied me through out the nights were my tears.

My blankie soaked with my saltish tears,

My teddie smell like my tears.

My bed is covered with all my sorrows.

Looking back into the past makes me fill with guilt.

I have wrong towards alot of men,

hurt them & left them.

I was a player.

Now, guilt has overtaken my all emotions.

I can feel nothing except being guilty towards him.

That him is a very special him.

Had the best memories with him that I could ever dream of.

He is still as charming as before, but now with a tingle of reality.

The pain that he had been through is indescribable.

Trust & faith all gone in a 'poof'

I hope that he finds a girl who really appreciate him for who he is.

I have lost my opportunity in giving him happiness,

so I hope that he can find his happiness.

I wish him well.

Thank you for the beautiful memories.

I will be treasuring them till the day I can no longer remember.

I am still as screwed up as before.

Believing in Karma & retribution, I am serving my sentence now.

I deserve it.

I think God might think that death sentence will be going too easy on me.

Slow torture will be the best way.

So that I can feel every inch of pain.

Thus God is fair.

i have lost my mind

2011-03-25T21:12:00.002+08:00

Lose My Mind - The Wanted

They say that time
Heals everything
But they don't know you
And the scars you bring

'Cos you left a jagged hole
And I can't stand it anymore

If heartache was a physical pain
I could face it I could face it
But you're hurting me
From inside of my head
I can't take it I can't take it

I'm gonna lose my mind
I'm gonna lose my mind

I'd erase my thoughts
If only I knew how
Fill my head with white noise
If it would drown you out
Kill the sound

If heartache was a physical pain
I could face it I could face it
But you're hurting me
From inside of my head
I can't take it I can't take it

I'm gonna lose my mind
I'm gonna lose my mind

And I'd rather be crazy
I'd rather go insane
Than having you stalk
My every thought
Then having you here inside my heart

If heartache was a physical pain
I could face it I could face it
But you're hurting me
From inside of my head
I can't take it I can't take it

I'm gonna lose my mind
I'm gonna lose my mind

what is love?

2011-02-07T23:25:00.000+08:00

i have lost luv...

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2011-01-04T21:11:00.003+08:00

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2010-12-11T11:54:00.004+08:00

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to you

2010-10-02T21:17:00.003+08:00

it doesn't mean that i have left you means that i'm leading a very comfortable life.

it doesn't mean that i don't miss you.

do you know how much i miss you?

i have done wrong & i have to face my consequences.

i don't want to hurt you again.

you chose to distance away from me maybe is a good decision.

you were the one who keep me on breathing.
nevertheless, you're still the one.

i wish you well, my boy.

SAM @ 8Q

2010-07-04T22:21:00.008+08:00

Singapore Arts Museum @ 8Q

it was her 21st!

2010-06-21T15:14:00.002+08:00

Sharifah dear's 21st!

i really can use a wish right now

2010-05-27T21:04:00.000+08:00

Airplanes lyrics

愛一直存在

2010-05-10T21:22:00.003+08:00

梁文音- 愛一直存在

作曲：陳孟奇

填詞：陳孟奇/馬嵩惟

編曲：林於賢

監製：阿弟仔

那天我揚起帆　想看看未知的海

心裡很多話想說說不出來　

雖然我臉上看不出來

天空一樣蔚藍　卻換了多少雲彩

那時的你讓我幸福百分百　是否為我等待

＊我知道我的愛一直都會存在

沒有你淚停不下來

你知道我依賴多不想Say Goodbye

我痛說不出來

我知道我的愛一直都會存在

沒有你快樂都停擺

某一天我期待和你笑的燦爛

回頭看愛都在

站在你的門外　我決心不再徘徊

心裡很多話想說說不出來　

但我想你一定都明白

時間過的好快想念卻不曾更改

現在的你是否幸福百分百我應該怎麼猜

Repeat ＊＊

愛一直存在

life's short

2010-05-08T20:48:00.002+08:00

recently blew my top over tiny winy stuffs, no doubts there are sparks contributing to the explosions. but i chose to lie low & explode by myself just in case anyone gets hurt. unfortunately, there is one who needs a wake up call from me thus the person is shredded into pieces. all i hope is that the person have learnt his/her lesson.

& i hope this is the very last time i'm doing this.

there are always threat everywhere, in the matter of fact it just take one to be observant & sensitive to sense it. for those who are kinda ignorant, please snap out of your self-centred world to really take a good look around you. appreciate all those who really care for you, if not you would not know when will be the last time you enjoy that moment. life is short, so be appreciative & love them back.

dunno

2010-05-05T22:18:00.002+08:00

I am really caught in the middle.

I am confused.

I don't know where to start from.

My mind is a blank.

I am hopeless.

I can't accept this, I can't accept that.

SERIOUSLY!!!

CAN I JUST MAKE UP MY BLOODY MIND???!!!

_I need you but I don't have the gut to say_

i'm proud to be a graduate of TP design school!!!

2010-04-26T22:04:00.003+08:00

i hope you understand

2010-04-21T21:14:00.000+08:00

Gotta go my own way

Gabriella: I gotta say what’s on my mind
Something about us doesn’t seem right…these days
Life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try
Somehow the plan is always rearranged
It’s so hard to say
But I gotta do what’s best for me
You’ll be okay…
CHORUS
I’ve got to move on, and be who I am
I just don’t belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way
Gabriella: Don’t wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up and I watch them fall every time
Another color turns to grey
And it’s just too hard…to watch it all…slowly fade away
I’m leavin’ today
’Cause I gotta do what’s best for me
You’ll be okay
Chorus
Troy: What about us? What about everything
we’ve been through?
Gabriella: What about trust?
Troy: You know I never wanted to hurt you
Gabriella: What about me?
Troy: What am I supposed to do…
Gabriella: I gotta leave but I’ll miss you
Troy: …miss you
Chorus (Repeat)

tired

2010-04-20T19:58:00.002+08:00

i'm so exhausted.

i'm so worn out by:
crying
working
worrying

hoping isn't the word for me.
all i need now is:

M-I-R-A-C-L-E

a miracle to happen on me.
.
.
.
every night i shiver, worrying what will happen the next day.
almost every night, i cry myself to sleep.
i have to coax myself to sleep every night.
FEARS are what within me.
.
.
.
i'm just fortunate to be picked up by you.
you are no other than my boyfriend.
after mummy's accident, i found out something from you...

I CAN ALWAYS COUNT ON YOU.

thank you...
for being there for me.

1st day after neuter operation

2010-04-17T13:38:00.002+08:00

lilo's first day after her neuter operation.
she is still very blur and sleepy.
unwilling to take her meals.
fortunately, she got milk to consume.
but gotta force feed her bit by bit.

mummy regretted for sending lilo for the operation.
cause last night when lilo got home,
she cried until she fell asleep.
mummy didn't get a wink of rest last night due to lilo's crying.

currently, lilo is like a baby.
feeding, taking care of her & encouraging/ coaxing her to take her meal.
haha! i'm a 'mummy'

happy what?

2010-04-16T17:00:00.002+08:00

2 more days and it will be a long long year have passed.

happy birthday?
happy what?

hmmm....

happy anniversary!

anniversary

2010-04-05T00:29:00.006+08:00

our anniversary at BATAM

whatever

2010-03-30T22:55:00.000+08:00

i just lost my holiday mood.

i beg you

2010-03-30T22:32:00.002+08:00

every parents do care for their flesh & blood.
everytime you pour all your rants on other people's son.
does it means that their son ain't a human?

we all humans do have feelings.
every rants you pour on me,
even a tiny cell in my body feels like puking them out.
but can i?
i can't.

why?

as i respect you,
i look up to you.
& seriously,
even if i have kids in the future.
i wouldn't want them to be like me.
i don't want them to undergo what i went through.

looking on the bright side,
Moses Wong said this before:
when you been through hell, anywhere is heaven.

currently, all's in my head is just to get as far away from you as possible.
i don't want your naggings.
i don't want your rantings on somebody's son.
i just want peace & quiet.
just let me enjoy myself for these few days.
& i will be back.

please stop your mouth from moving...

vanilla twilight

2010-03-25T22:28:00.001+08:00

Vanilla Twilight Lyrics

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake I miss you.
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me.
I'd send a postcard to you dear,
'Cause I wish you were here.

I watch the night turn light blue.
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find repose in new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.

it's alright

2010-03-23T20:43:00.001+08:00

LADY GAGA - SO HAPPY I COULD DIE

I love that lavender blonde
The way she moves
The way she walks
I touch myself can't get enough
And in the silence of the night
Through all the tears
And all the lies
I touch myself and it's alright

Just give in
Don't give up baby
Open up your heart and your mind to me

Just know when
That glass is empty
That the world is gonna bend

Happy in the club with a bottle of red wine
Smiles in our eyes 'cuz we're having a good time

Eh-eh
Eh-eh
So happy I could die
Be your best friend
Yeah I'll love you forever
Up in the clouds
We'll be higher than ever

Eh-eh
Eh-eh
So happy I could die
And it's alright

I am as vain as I allow
I do my hair
I gloss my eyes
I touch myself all through the night
And when something fall out of place
I take my time
I put it back
I touch myself
Till I'm on track

Just give in
Don't give up baby
Open up your heart and your mind to me

Just know when
That glass is empty
That the world is gonna bend

Happy in the club with a bottle of red wine
Smiles in our eyes 'cuz we're having a good time

So happy I could die
Be your best friend
Yeah I'll love you forever
Up in the clouds
We'll be higher than ever

So happy I could die
And it's alright
Happy in the club with a bottle of red wine
Stars in our eyes 'cuz we're having a good time

So happy I could die
Be your best friend
Yeah I'll love you forever
Up in the clouds
We'll be higher than ever

So happy I could die
And it's alright

without you

2010-03-23T16:13:00.003+08:00

a day passed,
a day without you...

will i get used to my life without you?

though i just want some time on my own,
but it seems like i have lost something.

once you start to lose something,
you will start to appreciate.

but why are some things returning back?
lose a guy, gain 2 guys?
what an equation?!
WTH?!

i just want peace

2010-03-14T17:09:00.004+08:00

will everything resume back to norm when i listen to you?

(you: you go & focus on your studies then we talk about it)

can i do whatever i want when i listen to you?

(you: sure, terms & conditions applied)

will i get a life of what i wanted when i listen to you?

(you: when u heed my words, you will be a better person in life!)

.
.
.

.
.
.

in other words,

... ...

can i NOT listen to your words?

=))

2010-03-06T03:24:00.001+08:00

i'm so glad to have you back in my life.
=))

men, men, men.

2010-03-04T01:31:00.002+08:00

cannot believe my luck that i was tormented by men the whole of 3march2010.
on the way to work, i was being forced, squeezed and smell.
2 china men & 1 bangalah sandwiched me & another guy in the centre of the train cabin.
it is really unusual for them to be in the centre of the train cabin, but yesterday.
they did.
the worse has yet to come.
3 of them raised their arms together to hold on to the handrails.
i nearly fainted.

at work, i was being bossed around by my captains.
arrogant, cocky assholes.
act smart but they aren't smart.
i pity them.

boy told me that somebody made a whoohah to somebody.
seriously, can guys don't be so petty & busybody?
you guys are even worse than we women.
gossiping around, spreading rumors.
poking your noses into other people's business.
please lah,
MIND YOUR OWN ASS!
you're already a PAIN IN MY NECK.
i thought that people who are able to get into government's university,
they are suppose to be some smart asses.
but sad to say.
YOU FLUNK IN YOUR MORAL.

WARAKU@ILLUMA

2010-03-02T01:19:00.002+08:00

IT WAS CAUGHT IN WARAKU@ILLUMA.

we 4

2010-02-27T00:24:00.000+08:00

WE 3 WEIRDOs

please, please, please...

2010-02-25T20:49:00.002+08:00

money cannot buy you true love.
money cannot resolve all issues.

i don't deny the fact that money do tempt me.
but bribing me with money isn't what i want.
all i want is just your love & commitment.

promises are always broken
or stayed unkempt.

can you just feel it with your heart?
who is really true to you?
who really care for you?
who really want the best for you?

please don't be blinded by your current situation.
entertainment is always fun & good.
but spare a thought for yourself,
you're alone there.
i'm not there to settle things for you.
please learn to initiate & D.I.Y.

my tolerance has a limit.
i'm not over-flowing with patience & love.
turn back before it's too late.

opportunities are hard to come by.
be appreciative & grab hold onto them before everything is gone.
no longer can i give you a promise that i will be there for you for everything.
before i can keep my promise,
bear in mind: what's yours?

activities

2010-02-24T22:33:00.008+08:00

_heaps of activities happened_

happenings!

2010-02-10T03:43:00.001+08:00

ALL THE HAPPENINGS FOR THE PAST 1 WEEK

my boyfriend gave me a surprize

2010-01-31T23:43:00.003+08:00

_30jan2010_

i think you can see something really small.

oops, i forgot to smile. =X

i kinda like this shot. harhar!

his steak

my ravioli

singapore scenery as dinner backdrop

after 21years, this is my 1st time in esplanade's concert hall.

i was blown away by the interior design

i wanna be like this designer!

i salute the designer.

adventure! here i come!

2010-01-28T23:46:00.002+08:00

i'm truly blessed to have a boyfriend.
my love gave me a pleasant surprize today.
tickets for 2 for a concert.

what more can i ask from you?
(to be even more addicted to me?)
***grins***

point to take note of:
i have a weak heart.
i can't take too many shocks at one go.

but i still want to have dim sum for breakfast,
can we?
=))

tomorrow's adventure awaits.

hands off!

2010-01-24T15:50:00.002+08:00

touch my boyfriend & you're doom for sure!

21st bday

2010-01-13T20:22:00.004+08:00

party crashed! SUCCESS!

K.O.

2010-01-04T23:02:00.002+08:00

Knock you down - Keri Hilson

Heh, not again
Ohh, this ain't supposed to happen to me

Keep rockin', and keep knockin'
Whether you Louis Vuitton it up or Reebokin'
You see the hate, that they're servin' on a platter
So what we gon' have, dessert or disaster?

I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in, and knocked me on my face
Feels like in I'm a race
But I already won first place

I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did
(As hard as I did, yeah)
You got me thinkin' bout our life our house and kids, yeah
Every mornin' I look at you and smile
'Cause boy you came around and you knocked me down
Knocked me down

Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)

I never thought I'd, hear myself say, ooh, ya'll gon' head
I think I'm gonna kick it wit my girl today, kick it wit my girl today
I used to be commander and chief
Of my pimp ship flyin' high, flyin' high)
Til I met this pretty little missile that shot me out the sky
(Oh shot me out the sky)

Hey, now I'm crashing, don't know how it happened
But I know it feels so damn good
Said if I could back, and make it happen faster
Don't you know I would baby if I could
Miss Independent, ohh, to the fullest, the load never too much
She helpin' me pull it
She shot the bullet that ended that life
I swear to you the pimp in me just died tonight
Girl sometimes love

Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)

Tell me now can you make it past your Caspers
So we can finally fly off into NASA
You was always the cheerleader of my dreams that
Seem to only date the head of football teams
And I was the class clown that, always kept you laughin'

We, were never meant to be baby we just happen
So please, don't mess up the trick, hey young world I'm the new slick rick
They say I move too quick, but we can't let the moment pass us
Let the hourglass pass right into ashes

Let the wind blow the ash right before my glasses
So I wrote this love letter right before my classes
How could a goddess ask, someone that's only average
For advice, OMG, you listen to that bitch?
Whoa, it's me, baby this is tragic
'Cause we had it, we was magic

I was flyin', now I'm crashin'
This is bad, real bad, Michael Jackson
Now I'm mad, real mad, Joe Jackson
You should leave your boyfriend now, I'mma ask him

Say you gotta put the good with the bad, happy and the sad
So will u bring a better future than I had in the past
Oh Cause, I don't wanna make the same mistakes I did
I don't wanna fall back on my face again
Whoa, whoa, I'll admit it, I was scared to answer love's call
Whoa, whoa, and if it hits better make it worth the fall
(When it comes around)

Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)

Won't see it coming when it happens, hey
But when it happens you're gonna feel it, let me tell you now
You see when love knocks you down

Won't see it coming when it happens
But when it happens you're gonna feel it, let me tell you now
You see when love knocks you down
Yeah

who would know what's in my head now?
who would know what's going through my mind now?
who would bother to understand me?
i do understand that each individual has his/her stress.
thus i tried to keep my mouth shut.
only listening to songs & sleep can put my stress on hibernation mode.
if only. . .
if only, i could just disappear for a moment.
i don't wish to be dead but i just need some peace & quiet.
my tiny winy brain won't be able to take in any more information.
i hate my tiny brains.
& i mean it.

events

2009-12-31T21:30:00.006+08:00

events that had took place in the past one week.

this is good shit!

it's empty...

i wanted that.

yu & jac

the fan was driving her hair NUTS.

i got wrinkles. . . =((

boring. . .

i got baby FATS.

this isn't jac. LOL

long over-dued posting on mrs claus wanna-be.

crazy

2009-12-24T22:42:00.003+08:00

i did something REALLY CRAZY today.
something that even passer-by will stay away from me.
my parents ticked me off after my work.

Xmas prezzies were prepared last night.
there were even prezzies for strangers.
one bus uncle who i really want to thank him.
& a guy who is a complete stranger who i come to know.
that guy is my bus-mate, who takes the same bus to work every morning.

from normal people point of view:
i will scare all guys away.
& i think i did gave the guy a big scare.
while the bus uncle is very surprized. =)

had been looking forward to this Xmas party for a week.
although my efforts are abit futile.
i think it's still alright.
currently, i have became an icon in IWA design.
a santa claus & ... (see photo attached)

^description of me in IWA^

(-_-''')
i was ... ... all the way.

in IWA, 老大 is super duper attentive.
he gave me showergels instead of chocolates.
he's my idol.

eh, eh

2009-12-20T23:41:00.002+08:00

Lady GaGa - Eh, Eh (Nothing else i can say)

HAHA!

2009-12-14T22:35:00.003+08:00

went for eric's chalet last sat.
it was bashing!
& no doubt i had managed to eric's favourite! =)
(somebody owes me big time)
HAHA!

i was looking through some skype conversations.
one of them moved me to tears.
how i wish i can turn back time.
when everything is still fresh.
unlike now...
feels so rotten.
eeeeeeeeee...

hope that joevenn di will get well SOON! =D
& there will be surprizes ahead!
STAY TUNE!

love?

2009-12-05T23:01:00.002+08:00

u said you love me.
that was the past.
it supposed to be the present,
& as well as the future.

but. . .
currently, all my dreams have shattered.
all because of you. . .

i feel so like a fool.
i'm an idiot.
i'm stupid.

my stupidity still carry on in me.

i miss you

2009-11-29T20:32:00.002+08:00

because of your words.
now my heart is moved.
my mindset is becoming to be fickle.

why?
why?
WHY?!

i have told myself that it is the past already.
& yet now...
things are getting somewhere.

why must you appear in front of me in this crucial period?!
ahhhhh~~!!!

i miss you.

hurt

2009-11-29T03:50:00.002+08:00

i should be sleeping as soundly as a log right now.
but somethings are still on my mind.
haunting me...
taunting me...

although it is best to keep some words to myself.
very soon...
& i really mean very soon...
i will explode.

treat me like i deserve it.
not treat me like for nothing.
i'm not nothing.

dumb, you were there.
but now you aren't.

stupid is trying to salvage everything she can.

IWA family

2009-11-27T00:37:00.002+08:00

_my new design family_

=D

happy birthday to mr lim!
hearts dorothy & ben loads!

i love my internship!

night safari

2009-11-21T23:41:00.007+08:00

long over dued - Night Safari trip on 17oct09

we headed to the right side, not left.

stupidly, i was looking into another camera

IT'S NOT ME! IT'S HER!

i love this shot the most! but abit far...

hanging cable bridge

trying to be one, but not one.

my smile. . .cramp

do you need a monkey in night safari?

stupid photographer shot my FAT arm.

i was over-the-safety line.

me, myself & i

what the fcuk?

argh~~ my eyes...

plain lucky

2009-11-21T01:43:00.002+08:00

i have to thank my lucky star to be by my side these few days.
i'm lucky to get to know so many directors & CEOs in working at hotel.
by knowing them is really THE MOST FORTUNATE THING!

i'm currently happily attached to a interior & retail design company.
IWA Design Pte Ltd
everyday is always filled with so much information to learn from.
i'm not being sarcastic here.
i really love the job.
& i made lots of friends there who are really passionate about their work.
=))
2 months is indeed short.
but at most i can only stretch till 26jan2010.

maybe i really did something really right in my life.
like dumb said before:
get a certified cert with something you want to do in your future.
not get a cert for the sake of that cert.
that cert will be your future job.

many people don't agree with what my decision is.
parents go: 'NO! HELL NO!'
friends go: 'don't want lah, wasted leh'
i go: 'i really HATE this course, it will get me no where'
pink form, here i come!

but pink form is 9am to 5pm.
while i have to work from 9am to 6pm.
=((

let me go

2009-11-10T20:13:00.002+08:00

is that fucking piece of degree cert that valuable?!
that fucking piece of paper.

it really screwed up my life.

do you really understand me?
do you really know what i really want?
guide me, not force me!

forcing me doesn't solve anything.
i have a brain & a heart.
i'm not a puppet.
i'm not a strawberry.

please, just please let me go...

just for laugh

2009-11-08T02:51:00.005+08:00

seriously not people who are weak hearted.
i know the consequences of posting this,
so just enjoy it.

by the way, some guys may find it very very very offensive.
sincerely i apologize for that.

for your information, i just had a chat with this guy on msn.
then things started to evolve.
see below for more info.

anal

2009-11-05T23:36:00.000+08:00

I FEEL LIKE BEING AN ANAL FOR TODAY.

i'm just a
pest
cum
bitch

怀念

2009-11-05T01:34:00.002+08:00

怀念 - 蔡依林

关起满室不足的氧气

点着烟蒂回味你的呼吸

搜索脑里未完的龃龉

对着空气还击着你的问题

推辞每次真实的相聚

困着自己渴望着你的消息

沾沾自喜拒绝的魅力

不着痕迹享受着与你的距离

也许喜欢怀念你

多于看见你

我也许喜欢想像你

多于得到你

散落一地断续的谜语

翻来覆去甜蜜的怀疑

故作神秘延续着你的好奇

不需要抱着你

啊……

受不了真一起

Ah……

halloween

2009-11-01T13:47:00.006+08:00

_HoRrOr NiGhT_

jac before photoshop

seductive jac after photoshop

look into her eyes & she will devour you. . .

jac in distress

jac indulging in vegetables. . .

not vegetables but EGG MAYO SALAD

my lovely photographer - babe =)

he's in charge of my photoshoot

i will silence her in the restroom. . .

she is just too noisy. . .

death is shooting her as she poses, pretending i don't exist. . .

death has HER around her arm. . .

death is such a hypocrite

beware of your back, you will never know who's behind you. . .

death is so bitchy

this shot is best to be on your front door to ware off all evils.

*gasps*

doll doll needs her master

doll doll is lonely. . .

doll doll is dying. . .

i will get you. . .

left all alone. . .

ha ha ha!

2009-10-31T15:03:00.002+08:00

i'm happy because i had my delifrance baguette. =))

ran into chia haw last night.
so hilarious~
both of us had been in woodlands for donkey years.
& once after secondary school graduation.
we didn't bump into each other at all.
wow~ it had been almost 4years since we last saw each other.

hopefully i can become an exhibit later.
rather than some unknown visitor.
will be posting all the taken shits later.

annoyed

2009-10-30T02:24:00.000+08:00

feeling so vex right now.
nothing seems right at all.
why? why?! WHY?!

lost

2009-10-28T21:36:00.000+08:00

never felt so lost before.
this time round,
it ain't easy to pick myself up again...

too many things,
too many incidents,
just happened too fast.
too fast for me to react.

although i may say that:
i'm fine.
seriously, i'm not fine deep within.

i can't possibly keep on pester pei yu to listen to all my nonsenses.
i need to solve my problems myself.

shit!

2009-10-28T00:53:00.003+08:00

wan ting's mind is FULL OF SHIT!
and nothing else.

fireflies

2009-10-22T13:28:00.002+08:00

Owl City - Fireflies

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep

'Cause they'd fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude
But I would just stand and stare

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems

'Cause I'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance

A foxtrot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

Leave my door open just a crack
(Please take me away from here)
'Cause I feel like such an insomniac
(Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep
(Please take me away from here)
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep

To ten million fireflies
I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell

But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
'Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams

sleeping is good.
sleeping makes me relax.
sleeping makes me forget.
forget about those unhappiness.
boy calls me a pig when i sleep too much.

you're an addiction

2009-10-19T19:40:00.003+08:00

the start of my day without you.
it is just only day 1.
& it feels like shit.

although it is a routine.
& this isn't your first time leaving.
but why am i feeling so terrible?

it seems like one part of my body is being sheared away.
my daily dosage of happiness is now gone.
life without you is so empty.

you're an addiction.
i need to stay brave.
it will be better for both of us.

yu's bday

2009-10-09T18:14:00.005+08:00

birthday girl 08/10

belated birthday girl 03/10

belated birthday girl 06/10

not birthday girl but special guest

make-you-go-gaga drinks

'opening ceremony'

1st's drooling, 2nd's praying, 3rd's wishing gong xi fa caii

is the cake so hard to cut? need so much effort

THIS IS EPIC!!! hahahhahahaha!!!

ermmm~ jac & yong peng

wow, my hair is damn long

3 loves

jud is always camera-ready

there you go: my kor, mark

yu wants attention but jud seems to get it all.

so gonna drag them to halloween this year.

bloody judith...

boy's back for a short holiday =)

reflection

2009-10-07T13:51:00.001+08:00

Reflection - Christina Aguilera

Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day, is as if I play apart
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I can not fool
My heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now
In a world where I have to
Hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that i'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
There's a heart that must
Be free to fly
That burns with a need
To know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that i'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflections show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflections show
Who I am inside?

am i really who i am right now?
or am i just only a puppet?
i'm tired of becoming who i'm not.

i'm old enough

2009-09-30T00:12:00.002+08:00

why must people compare?
there is no point in comparing.
that is your point of view if you're bias.

you maybe right in the future.
but now.
can you just trust me?
i'm old enough to think for myself.

i know what are my consequences.
the past is the past.
i just want to drop it.
i don't even want to think about it.

a small wish

2009-09-23T22:27:00.005+08:00

all i want is:
just someone to care for me.
someone who can motivate me.
someone who can really treasure me.

judith sent me this video on msn last night.
i just don't understand why people have harsh comments on this video.
the whole purpose of this film is to portray true love.
who will really understand true love means?

after watching the video, thoughts of death crossed my mind.
indeed, there are alot of times when i really feel like giving up.
i'm really sick & tired of life.
sometimes, i just hope to be the foolish one to end it.
i scolded people stupid for committing suicide, but what about the present me?
i'm no difference to those dead people.

a small wish:
i wish that i was the female dog.
a dog who was once showered with love by her soul-mate.

f**king stupid

2009-09-19T15:13:00.001+08:00

i'm god damn stupid lah!
i actually left my wallet in friend's car!
ooh great!
how do i get my ass outta my house later?!
no cards, no cash.
not even ezlink card.

them. just the 3 of them.

2009-09-18T00:17:00.003+08:00

just the 3 of them.

the 3 loves of my life.

Kushinbo

2009-09-09T22:59:00.006+08:00

insults will always be insults.

2009-09-04T19:17:00.002+08:00

insults will always be insults.
humiliation will always remains as humiliation.

forgiving and forget about all these?
i'm still learning...

i know that i do make stupid mistakes at times.
but it doesn't mean that you can bring me down until to the extent of
even bringing down my previous school.
i can accept your criticism on me but not your criticism on my previous school.

yes, i'm unhappy.
and no doubt , i'm fed up.
i even tried to avoid you.
do you even give a shit or damn about other people's feelings?

somehow now, i personally feel that my TP's diploma is just only a fake.
can anyone enlighten me?
what's real? what's fake?

all i know is that...
i'm standing in the grey zone all alone.

lucky or unlucky?

2009-08-24T22:39:00.003+08:00

had been on a marathon on movies for the past one week.
non-stop in catching the latest movies in town.
from Food Inc. to UP in 3D to Orphan to District 9.
not forgetting going for the Da Vinci exhibition.
pretty good life right? =)

good life was just plain lucky.
plain lucky to get to know a gentleman who treats me like a princess.
it is really rare for girls to find a guy who treats girls like princesses.
but those events that took place really knock me out.
i was backfired my own dress.
i was sarcastically commented by my guests.

no one was there for me.

my marker rendering for AUDI R8 is getting from bad to worse.
ooh dear, i just have to admit that i suck in rendering.

rendering is 85% done but not yet done.
caid is 0% done.

i'm hopeless.

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.
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i'm still alone.
i hate to be alone.
can i don't be alone?

my teddybear is missing, can i sleep with you tonight?

upset, super upset, utterly upset

2009-08-20T14:38:00.002+08:00

i'm upset over my current school.
i'm upset over the school fees.
i'm upset over my school assignments.
i'm upset over modules.

i'm upset over HELL LOADS OF THINGS!

i wanna fly to auzzie!
there have alex korkor & boy.
i'm so sad now.
i need a break really badly.

couzzie ying will be back from US for my 21st.
what about you?
need to plan & organize events really soon!
time for me to get a bloody organizer.

Da Vinci's exhibition

2009-08-17T15:34:00.002+08:00

super sweet babe

2009-08-16T01:17:00.002+08:00

babe was super utterly sweet.
i was melted & super touched by his actions.

just caught the movie 'UP' in 3D.
Disney is definitely better than Dreamworks.
the storyline was good, the animation is a no doubt thumbs up.
the graphics rendering was stunning.
the background music & the choice of music was the best combination with the graphics.
credits to all the producers!!!

sad to say, i was watching it in marina square's GV.
the popcorn was ermmmm... ... =(
the seats' lightings were F-King BRIGHT, until it affected my attention in the movie.
the cinema was simply too crowded.
kids' crying.
what i can't tolerate the most was:
the girl sitting beside me, laughing at scenes that aren't really funny.
basically, she was laughing through out the whole movie.
it does annoys me though.
perhaps i wasn't in the mood of laughing.

i'm fed up with school

2009-08-14T00:25:00.003+08:00

completely, i'm engulfed by the fire.
not the fire of passion.
but the fire from hell.
very soon, will be my turn to be in hell or heaven.

going to school is like going to jail everyday.
perhaps like a detention centre.

dragging my bloody feet to school every single day.
slog all day.
without any ample rest.

they assume that we understand what they want.
one said this, another one said that.
who is correct?
& please for goodness sake,
i'm only a FRESHIE.
even my classmates have problems understanding THEM.

i'm really sick & tired of it.
did i make a wrong decision in choosing this school?
i'm not really learning new anything from here,
but relearning what i had learn from TP.
is this what i really want?

if i am able to tolerate for another 2years.
i will have 2 diplomas & a BA degree.
very hilarious~ isn't it?
other people double majors while me?
retaking a diploma again cause my 1st diploma cannot make it???

worried

2009-08-09T13:56:00.000+08:00

i'm now getting more & more worried.
worried of these & that.
it's more than it meets the eye.
i'm actually getting nowhere.
i'm having doubts on what i can get now.
i'm no longer as competitive as before.
to be exact, i miss all my friends.
i'm really alone & terrified.
school's life is no longer the same.
stress load is getting more & more heavier.

no matter what, i still have to stay strong.
until the day, when i turn back & look at myself.
giving myself a pat on the back & say:
''well done wan ting, you managed to pull through & you had moved on.''